About me

Stuck on my axis

I am patient

Finding balance

Finding reason

Finding myself

I have been running

Chasing what I thought was in one place

Pushing the stars behind my eyes

Waiting every day

I became invisible

A meaningless microcosm

Getting paid under the table

Alive to simply “keep the system moving”

Stuck in a closet

Where I became so lonely

I named the trees

And at night, they talked to me

Through their shadows on my white walls

Where the paint was chipping

And the black dust from the streets

Stained my sheets

…It is a wonderful place

full of bright lights and lonely people

Rushing, working, fighting

Trying desperately not to disappear

Trying to be someone

Be recognized, a face everyone knows

The life of the party,

The gem of the city

To be seen

“Be discovered”

But everyone walks with their heads down

Everyone has grey eyes because no one can sleep

Everyone wants more, no one is satisified

“Voir Mes Os” is beautiful

They crave bones, not curves

There is beauty undiscovered

That lies within the stone and rain

The winding paths and subway trains

That take you to the next one

Where you’re “just not right” again.

They were corny, surface charachters

that would only be alive for 45 to 60 seconds

Just my voice

Just my smile

This is not my craft

This is plastic, empty, and money hungry

I dont do it for the money

I do it for the feeling

For the truth

For the escape

For the discoveries

I was becoming plastic

Empty

and money hungry

Full of envy, jealousy

Craving perfection

Craving bones

Becoming jaded

Because its all so fake

No one is happy because nothing is honest

I would run along the river

and breathe finally at the sight of nature

The water moving fast some days

And not at all the next

Nothing is certain

Nothing is constant

Everything is temporary

Just like the fame that people crave

It will live as long as their beauty will last

I am more than 45 to 60 seconds

I am not craving to be known

I simply crave happiness

to the core

Financial stability

Natural beauty

I crave peace and simplicity

And so I am doing things differently

Though in limbo at the moment…

As I lure the many rabits from my hat

Putting them all on pedestals

And discovering what magic will happen next.